Lemons and listening

I am a very patient person. I can listen to another person talk as much as they need. I can listen without judgement.

And sometimes, when I am in the right space, I can respond with thoughts and images that come to me. Maybe these are from God, Angels, or my own intuition. I can deliver the messages, and help people to learn and heal.

The problem that I have is listening to myself.

For much of my life I was the chameleon. I would change color to be whatever others needed. I would adapt and help. Part of that adapting was listening to others. Their thoughts, their ways, their likes and dislikes. As part of adapting I would take on their ways. I was taught that others were wiser and smarter than I was, and that I should do as others said.

Sometimes this was bad for me. I would listen to thoughts and ideas from outside myself, and let those override my own thoughts and feelings. Over time, I created a separation of mind and body. I would not listen to the needs of my own body, so the messages stopped or changed.

Recently, a friend, who has received messages though me, asked me if I ever got messages for myself. That set me to pondering. For days and weeks. I realized that I was not good at listening for messages for myself.

I was really lacking not just at listing to myself, but listening for myself, especially when it came to taking care of my own body. So yesterday when I was at a Reiki Share, receiving Reiki, I consciously opened myself to receiving messages for myself.

Lemons. Lemon cleanse. Lemons would help me to cleanse some negative effects of some of the foods I had eaten. They would help me to unblock energy.

It was a message. A clear message. When I got home I started to squeeze lemon wedges into my water. It started to help. It was exciting to get the message, and that it started to work quickly.

The challenge for me now is to keep listening. To my body. For messages from Spirit. To get better at taking care of myself. To keep improving and getting stronger and more healthy. To listen not just for others but for myself.